A chunky Mom's journey to get fit..

Hey, my name is Shawna. I am a surgical nurse/first assistant. I have three small children and a great husband. I feel very blessed with all that I have been given. I know I have no reason to be unhappy with my life. I have everything! Supportive family, three healthy, beautiful kids, and very dear friends. The only thing I'm missing is a fit and healthy body. I was always thin and athletic until I got married and had my kids, one right after the other. I did not eat healthy. I thought I could eat whatever I wanted. I was sure it would just fall off! I was so naive. So now I'm nearly 100 pounds over weight. My back hurts, nothing fits. I am always uncomfortable. I feel very self conscious. I feel very ugly. I wonder what people think when they look at me. Homecoming queen turned to fatty! I don't understand how my husband even thinks I'm pretty anymore. I'm tired of being fat and unhappy with myself! My kids ask me if I'm going to have another baby, and want yo know why I'm so big. I want to be a good role model for them. I want them to see their mommy exercising, eating healthy, being fit, and being happy with herself. I have found so many inspiring stories on this website. U all inspire me! I am ready to make a change! 2012 is MY year dammit! The person I am now is NOT the person I want to be! Last week I changed my diet. Lots of fruits, veggies, water, and exercise. My husband helped me take my measurements last night. I started 30 shred today. I am already feeling the soreness, but now I understand that that is good! I have done something right! I can do this! Please feel free to follow me through my journey to getting fit, healthy, and happy. I would love advice, encouragement, etc.